The 29th of February, the day I was born.
When I wake up on this day, I’m in a different city, with a different life and no memory of the lives I had before this one. Today is the tenth time this has happened to me. The tenth time I’ve had to figure out where the hell I am. The tenth time I’ve had to try and work out who the hell I am. This is the tenth alteration of the person I am. Each of us has had different lives, different backgrounds and different families. But there’s always been one constant.
He’s the reason I keep doing this. He’s the reason I spend four years searching. If I’m lucky, I’ll get the trigger and find him quickly and we can spend those four years together before I disappear again. If I’m not, we might get a year, a month or even just a day. Once we got nothing, but that was a choice.
And every time it happens, he patiently waits for me. He says that every time I come back to him, it’s like falling in love with me all over again. I say that every time I come back, I fall even more in love with him than before.
It scares me that one day I won’t be able to find him at all, because when that day comes, I’m not sure I’ll want to keep going. He is my strength, my protector, my one and only constant.
I love him.
He loves me.
But every four years, I lose myself.
And every four years, I have to find him.
This is our story
I’ve been in a major book slump. After starting and not finishing three separate books, I was desperate for something to grab my attention and suck me in. Something about this book called to me. The synopsis was rolling around in my brain ever since I posted about this new release on our Facebook page. After giving up on my third book, I decided I just needed to 1-click this one and give it a chance. It immediately did what those other books had not, sucked me and wouldn’t let me go.
I probably cried through 50% of this book. Every time the four year mark was hit, I felt like I was dying a little inside for Ben. All we get is Evie’s point of view but it’s not hard to imagine or feel the devastation that Ben feels every time she vanishes. And when Ben begs her to stay, it just killed me inside. I found myself begging the author to just make the vanishing stop. To give these two a life together. After everything they had been through, they deserved more than four years at a time. And they didn’t always get a whole four years. When that happened, it was horrifying to watch Evie be so lost and not understand why she felt so hollow inside.
The best times are when Ben and Evie are together. His devotion to Evie is unparalleled. Every girls wants a guy like Ben to love her. I was pleasantly surprised by some of the love scenes, they were passionate, raw and emotional, and didn’t fade to black. The author did an excellent job of capturing the desperation that Evie and Ben were feeling.
This isn’t just a friends-to-lovers story. This is a story of fate and destiny. And how not even a curse of disappearing every four years can stop true love from bringing two souls together, over and over. This is one of those books that sticks to your soul and I’m so glad I picked it up. 5 stars.